I don’t have to carry it…

In my previous blog, I described how I was going off social media and spending each day focusing on a chapter of the bible a day, and what the Lord was speaking to me on that day.

I have been in a great mood since then but as life always does, it showed up today and I’m not quite feeling on top of the clouds like I was earlier.

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For anyone who does not deal with depression, I can only describe it like this:

before the great fall into its grips, it feels like your just slowly sliding down a mud hole. Like you can feel your foot slipping and you must grab onto something before you’re deep down into it.

Due to knowing who God is and who I am in him when I start to feel this familiar yet unwelcome spirit sneak up on me, I do all that I can to walk away from that feeling.

For starters, I grasp on to the word of God, and today my message stated this:

Today God wants us to know that you can fool others, sometimes even yourself, but God always knows your truth.

Uncomfortable, painful, even scary at times, truth is always better than lies. Remember, God always knows.

While the grips of depression had to let me go, I felt so safe and reassured that God ALWAYS knows the truth.

I don’t have to hold on to depression or let it hold onto me because he knows how I feel.

He knows when I feel like I can’t press on or when the tears are coming for no reason.

He knows when I want to crawl in bed and not get out or have the energy to deal with my husband or even my kids.

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And I truly believe in my heart that on those days, God knows that’s not who I am and he loves me anyway.

And when I do push myself to get started I believe he sends me extra grace and mercy to keep pushing forward.

He urges me to go to his word and find the relief that I so desperately need.

The keys to unlock the chains forming in my mind.

And as the chains begin to fall off, he took me to my verse of the day,


For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.

Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)

Friends, I am, we are, his masterpiece. He has given me a new life and a new hope through his loving son who walks with me daily. I may feel depressed because of where I am but God promises I will do good things that have been planned long ago.

I am not at my final destination, and you aren’t either.

We still have so much farther to go, and the beauty of it all is his miracles and his love is revealing itself to us every step of the way.


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